Ok so that video is called "Old T-Shirts + Midnight Loving". It's exciting and you should watch it. (That frame of me looks retarded though.)
Also I'm a youtube director now. And so is Holly ho. And it's amazing.
I have had a gigantic headache all day. We did chair auditions and I stopped two notes into it and pretty much yelled "I have spit" because there was spit in my trumpet! I missed the first couple notes just because of nerves but once I got past that and started playing I completely aced the thing. So I better be first chair or else I'll be doing some ass kicking.....to myself.
Anyway I'm feeling happier than I have lately right at this very second and it's nice. I think I'm just overall stressed out and that's not going to get better and I'm still dealing with the whole Kyle thing. And I have a right to be upset still. I spent two years with him and I loved him almost every minute of it. It's hard to lose something like that and now I know why there's so many broken heart songs. ha
But besides that...I'm beginning to realize that there are other people there for me that I can rely on to be there. I put my whole trust in one person to deal with me and listen to my crap when I should be spreading it evenly to everybody! Because like...even my mom is there to talk to me. And my sister. Then all these band friends that I thought just wanted to have fun with me... (Non sexual, of course. get your mind out of the gutter) ...they're all there too. Like Blaine and Don and Kaitlyn and pretty much most of my trumpet homies.
And of course I have my Julia, and Holly, and Meg. I love those guys so so much.
So pretty much to sum this up, I'm adapting. I'm learning. I'm making new friends. And I'm trying to rely on myself and a number of other people rather than one person. Because as Don said, I don't need to rely on a guy to keep me happy. Or something along those lines. It's just a learning process and it's a new time in my life, I suppose. Of course any support and loving towards me is well appreciated and I'm always up for a good hug. And it's going to take a little bit of time. But in some time I'll be okay. I'll be just fine and I won't be sad so much anymore and I'll be 100 times stronger because of this.
So until later. Adios lovers.
A couple Dome Game pictures for your viewing pleasure:
